Hi! I have a lot of mixed feelings from different posters about leaving messages on this board. Some people don't believe that I am really the former girlfriend of Mr. Situation Man (I don't blame you), while others think that I am only trying to start drama. I'll be honest with you. At first, when I signed on to post, I did want to tell you all about Ms. Niambi, but I thought better of it. Watching the show, I realize that she beats herself up enough. (And I've also read other viewers posts and realized that I REALLY didn't need to add anymore. OUCH!)I know some people may think it kind of sick that I'm watching the show, but it has actually brought more clarity to me, than hurt. I used to really dislike Niambi (still not too fond of her, to be truthful with you), but now I just feel sorry for her more than anything else. And watching the show has actually made me stronger. It's made me realize that I too, was making a fool of myself and was in love with a man, who didn't even love himself. And it makes me wonder how could a man do this to two women who deserve so much better? Yes, in my eyes Niambi is "the other woman", but she, like me, deserves better than what we've been given by this man. And that is the bottom line.

Now about the show: This show was shot back in Dec/Jan (as you may or may not know) and Mr. Situation Man and I weren't together at that time. I was actually out of town visiting my family, but I was still talking to Mr. Situation Man daily. He was trying to get back together with me and thought that if he told me about everytime Niambi called that it would make me trust him. So, I actually knew about Niambi's calls and e-mail. Why he hung up on her or was disconnected, is beyond me...I was just a shocked as you guys! As I stated earlier, I was out of town so it wasn't because of me. For all I know, it could have been someone else that was there. (I wouldn't be surprised.)

But, I honestly feel like this show is a blessing in disguise (as weird as that may sound), because it's showing me the woman (Niambi) that I will become if I don't make the necessary changes in my life. And like I stated earlier, I feel myself becoming stronger everyday. Mr. Situation Man (true to form), has tried to come back with the "I love you's" and the long face, and I have totally brushed him aside, as I should have done so a very long time ago. But, that's O.K. No time wasted. A necessary life experience. A lesson taught. A message sent. That's how I look at this whole "situation". So, this post may get negative comments (as my other posts did), but this is actually therapeutic for me. Sharing my thoughts and feelings. And, to the other posts that gave me positive feedback, thank you for your kind words. This will be my last post...

-Nikai