Here is what Niambi says was in the email (from her myspace blog)-"This correspondence will not be easy to compose, but it is very necessary & long overdue! This entanglement has held many lessons for me. I'm learning that I'm a love addict. Addicted to you. Addicted to this situation. the last couple weeks have definitely been withdrawal. I've been struggling with the longing and yearning for you. I miss you ardently... It saddens me that the chasm between us has continued to grow. There are times when I think the regret will never subside. Although I know the morning will soon come, the night is cold and lonely without you. I truly owe you an apology. I apologize for withholding the best part of me. It's unfortunate for both of us that you dont really know who I am. How I am. But you have taught me, to receive love, I must freely give love. I must be the love I want. I will embrace vulnerability and surrender my fears the next time intimacy is available to me. I apologize for looking to you for that which I can and should be giving myself. I've let my life get away from me because I've been so pre-occupied, focused on, and entangled with you. And a part of me has been holding you responsible for me being so stagnant. I've been angry with you for accepting less than I deserve and because I've been too afraid to simply ask for what I want! Well no more! Living a big life is my birthright. I can not, not shine! It's my destiny. I've been sabotoging myself because I've been afraid. Afraid to succeed, afraid to fail, afraid to look stupid. Until today. So although I know our time together was hurtful, venomous, and has finally come to an end, I want to thank you. Thank you for your contribution to my life's tapestry. I will take the memories and lessons with me. When people see me, they will also see you, because you are a part of me. I'm grateful for it all. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Thank you for your time and sharing a part of your life with me. Sharing a part of your love with me. Thanks for helping me to realize that I am special and loveable. To remember to recognize my abilities and greatness. To ask for what I want, establish clear boundaries, and take responsibility for my actions. I must also mind my mouth and stand up for myself. I'm free to live and love without withholding. I am a mountain of a woman and I am proud of my yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Even though I've been obsessing over the details, you are a beautiful man, a wonderful father, and a bright light in this world."
Here is HIS response according to Niambi;(1st installment)
"Hey Sweetcheeks, Well I've been thinking long and hard about the latest events and I've come up with a few thoughts of my own I want to share with you. First of them being that I am truly sorry for hurting you. The last time we spoke wasnt something I was at all prepared for, b/c I didnt think it would be. Nor did I want it to be. We were actually heading down a path of good feelings and true friendship building, but, as usual, I screwed up! The strangest thing is, I actually felt guilty. Therefore, I had to discuss with you what I had done, because I knew you deserved at least that much, as well as my respect. I hadnt felt that way before (guilty and like confessing) with you or her. Yes, I'm a late bloomer, but I shouldnt let the past interfere with what's right in front of me. I've done that to the both of you and it wasnt fair to anyone, including myself. Again, I'm sorry and deeply regretful."
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34