First: "First: the Shift keys should be on the lower right and left of your keyboard. The taser charge normally carried through them has probably been disabled. Try it out."

If you're going to make note of my lack of CAPITAL letters in my post, you should be sure to spell check yours prior to posting.
Cases in point:
1. "macochist" Though I realize that it may have just been a slip of the finger since both letters are in close proximity to one another.
2. "on first site."

Second: "some of us did ask you to talk about your experiences... Y'all shut up so fast."

There was a viable reason for this of course. We were notified by the producers at NBC that we could no longer post on boards due to destroying the 'reality/integrity' of the show for its viewers. I would have been more than happy to stay and chat about the show but I signed a contract... and even now I'm breaking the rules but I'll deal with the consequences later I'm sure.

Third (which will probably consist of all sorts of different issues relating to the rest of your post):
As far as what the show consists of... and the fact that your board has been slow due to nothing happening on the show that you haven't seen before... I can't help that. The producers are responsible for producing... the 'cast' on the show is responsible for content and for doing what they feel is their right/need to do.

I appreciate the fact that you can respect me for showing up when it is abundantly clear that this board is not necessarily intended as a place to give praise to the members of the show but is more a place for people to criticize and 'bash' as you so clearly put it. I will be honest and say that it took no amount of courage on my part to show up and say hello.

As far as being willing to accept my word when it comes to identity issues, again, I appreciate that. The internet doesn't tend to provide viable ways of 'proving ones existence' as there is never any physical proof... but rest assured, I am who I claim to be.

"You haven't done much here to distinguish yourself -- and let's face it: you have done almost exactly nothing on the show to stand out... The more you put yourself on the line -- both in the present and the past -- the more we'll respect you."

I am who I am. I am not out to make a name for myself. My intentions for going on the show may be different than those of many reality show contestants (I'm not sure) but either way, what you see is what you get.

Lastly, if putting myself on the line is my only means of earning your respect, I would consider this the end of the road. There is more to life than making a fool out of yourself or doing things which go against what you believe merely for the sake of gaining the respect of strangers. I am better than that and although they may not frequent this board, I'm quite positive there are others out there who would agree with me.

Enjoy the rest of the show (for whatever reason that may be).
Maybe when all is said and done, I'll return and we can continue this.

In the end, I appreciate YOUR courage in responding in the way that you did. I just hope that this discourse won't jade your opinion of me any more than it already has.