I hear you jehon. Trying to find your purpose in this life, much less day by day can, at times, make one feel...LOST. But in my own experience, I've discovered that acting on the desire to find meaning and spiritual identity in life, is actually heading in the right direction. The tough pill to swallow is that when going through many of these periods of growth and self-evaluation, it certainly does not FEEL like progress.
You're on the right track though. Reaching out for help, seeking inspiration from positive sources, searching for your truth in this life---- that's moving toward the light, that's progress.
dailyOM.com has many different inspirational topics and I think they have a discussion board.
Many blessings as you search for your truth!
femmesacre (sacred woman)